Wisconsin and Valentine's Day

My weekend in Wisconsin was filled with interesting things. We had a hotel debacle and a fun run-in with Phil in Rochester. The best advice I can give anyone is to NEVER stay in the Concourse hotel in downtown Madison. WORST hotel ever. End of story on that. Despite everything, we had a good time and made a lot of hilarious memories. Now I'm back in Vermillion and trying to get back into the flow of things. I'm a little behind on homework so I spent a bit of time doing that today. Went to the USD/SDSU Women's basketball game. It was such an amazing game! It went into overtime before the Yotes finally won it. It was exciting a fun.

Tomorrow is Valentine's Day. It occurred to me that I don't have a Valentine this year. It doesn't really bother me. I can have just as much fun with friends. The holiday kind of came out of nowhere. This school year has been moving so fast that I can't really keep up. Adrian was my Valentine last year but he's going out with Phil now so he's off limits. They're going to Sioux Falls on Thursday for a date. I have doubts that they'll make it back to Vermillion that evening. :) For some reason, Adrian is always really tentative about talking to me where Phil is concerned. I don't really get it. I'm so happy for them. They are really working out so far. I don't really know how much of a future they'll have with their career paths and education levels being different but for right now, they are happy and I'm happy for them. So its so strange that Adrian doesn't like talking about it. He's never had this kind of reaction with his other boyfriends. I suppose he could be afraid that I'm going to ruin it. Maybe he thinks that I'm responsible for the ending of his other relationships. He is so hard to read and he never tells me when he has a problem with me. It can get very confusing. Especially since I'm so open about my feelings. I've always struggled with him being so passive. There's something about his and Phil's relationship that makes him want to change the subject when we talk about it. It has caused a bit of a disconnect between us. It is hard to watch your best friend start to drift away from you. Its happened before but it is especially difficult this time. I just don't know how we'll hold up when I move away. He says that thinks won't change but I can't see how they won't. Maybe this is his way of trying to make things easier. He doesn't want to share things and he doesn't want to really talk about anything important ever. Maybe that makes it easier. I suppose it sucks either way. Maybe I'll just pretend like Valentine's Day doesn't exist this year. I can start celebrating singles' awareness day with all the other lonely people. I didn't always feel lonely. That's a fairly new development. I hate it.